User blog:Zikimura/Blissfully Disturbed

Yo, sup dudes and dudettes. Its your drunk ass high host Ziki-sama. How are you feeling? I'm fine, though I see double lol :D Dunno what I should write, 'scept the fact that I ain't English lol I'm fucking Bulgarian biotches. Just 'cuz I live in UK don't mean shit. Urgh I think I'm gonna puke.... :X You know.... what do you know? lol XD

Weeeeeee I'm high lol and I'm drunk lol lets all have some fun lol

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LOL :D

Um, I know I'm embarassing myself btw... please dom't think anything bad of me... I probably won't remember what I wrote in the morning... lol :D

I guess it has a lot to do with being a poor ass Bulgarian in UK, where 1 unit of ur f*cking currency is 2.45 of theirs. It sucks when u know u might not be able to finish ur damn education and follow ur fucking dream. Not only dat, but ur friends abandon u and u turn into some fucking drunk lol :D

Do you know I want do make computer games? I love playing games. So much that I wish other people would enjoy them too. I study Computer Game Design & Development. I want to be, and I will push the matter, a Game Designer no matter what.

I love creating things and if games let me be who I am and explore my imagination, then so be it. But I'm scared. So scared of the competition, of those who have studied this since they were kids, that I don't know what to do. Damn.....

But I'm rambling...

I LOVE YOU GUYS... I HAVENT FELT SUCH APPRECIATION IN A LONG TIME!!!!

Even though I generally try to not care what people think of me, I do appreaciate the ones that actually appreciate, lol, my work. It makes me feel like I'm not worthless.... lol XD

Thank you ;( seriously

I hope, for those who have read this far, that you don't think I'm a bad person.

I really f*cking wish I was more than I am.

Dammit, I'm gonna cry.

And puke, probably...

I hate how alcohol destroys my barriers and makes me say these fucking things.

PLEASE DON'T THINK I'M A BAD PERSON.

I want to get along with everyone. Zaraikou, I'm sorry, even if I think I'm right on the matter, I'm sorry for arguing with you.

I love ya Nowie, Zico, Ash. You guys have been friends to me more than anyone else.

Per-tama I hope you don't hate me afterwards. I'm sorry I never got to talk with you at all.

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